too much on my mind.

So lately I can't seem to turn my mind off there is just so much to think about it seems. I just want this semester to be over. It was supposed to be the best semester ever, and don't get me wrong it has been good...but yet so many things have gone wrong. Mostly, I lost my best friend, as in he just never talks to me anymore....and it hurts cause I kinda thought he cared more than that...guess you gotta learn the hard way about some people. Anyway, I am making new friends which is good. They are pretty much amazing and I am thankful to have them in my life.
On to subject number two on my brain....boys. I don't even know at all in this area...I just hope that he truly knows that he means everything to me. and well that...gah im sure he knows...i don't want to get into this. i. love. him. plain and simple. and i was thinking today how i find it funny when you are talking to a guy who has hurt you in the past and all your friends are like "..i just don't want you to get hurt again..." thats all well in good but everyone seems to miss the part that the most pain you have ever been through was not talking to that person...

okay so thanks for reading my rantings...if you even did....they are really kinda just insignificant and i had to get them off my chest...


love you!