Everything

So, tonight I started putting a lot of thought into what it means to truly live for God. These song lyrics were stuck in my head "Heal my heart and make it clean, Open up my eyes to the things unseen, Show me how to love like You have loved me, Break my heart for heart for what breaks Yours, Everything I am for your kingdoms cause...". It says Everything I am, Everything. What does that mean? That almost seems impossible, but I can't help but think that should be the easiest thing for us. These lyrics are my heart's cry to God but yet I daily feel like I fall short of this. Do I live everyday and give God my everything, every thought, every action..do they glorify Him? I honestly wish I could say yes, but wouldn't that be a lie. I want everything that I am, every piece of me to be used for His will, not my own. I want to see the unseen things. I want to have the love that He has. Pure, unconditional love. Wouldn't that be great to be able to say that I love everyone no matter what. Hopefully, one day I will be able to say that. The hardest thing to pray in all of those lyrics is "Break my heart for what breaks Yours". I must say, compassion is not easy. You will find yourself crying at the most inopportune times, and wishing you weren't. It's not something you can change. BUT compassion is also great. You can have new perspectives on life and people tend to want to be around compassionate people more. :)


So basicially, I wrote all of that to say this. It is worth it to live your life and be everything for God, it's just not easy. And I am learning exactly what "everything" means :)